I am Janae, welcome to my little blog. I am 21. Full time Nanny. Majoring in Social Work . This blog is just for me to vent and be random!

 

Too tired to cry tonight.

Survivor Guilt
· Thank goodness, you survived!
- more people than you know are happy that you survived
- we are saddened by so many deaths
- even if your life seems insignificant to you now, we are relieved that you are alive
· Know that there is no offense in surviving
- it is good to survive
- it is okay to delight in being alive
· Feel free to reassess your life
- reassess what is valuable to you
- make the best of your life
. making the best of your life can be a tribute to your survival and to those who died
. take the opportunity to reevaluate the meaning of your life
. is your life all it can be?
. what is or can be your purpose? your talent? your benefit to lif

- bloom where you’re planted
. process the traumatic experience and its associated symptoms with appropriate assistance
. put guilt to good use
· If it is in your nature to do so, cherish life
- treasure being alive
. whether you survived due to fate, a purpose, luck, chance, or “just did,” long life
and kindness are not guaranteed to any of us
. each day and each act of kindness can be treasured as gifts
- treasure the best of each day
- be aware of your physical mortality in good and positive ways
- allow that cherishing life may be easier after recovery from trauma.

My mom wrote this too.. I definitely needed to read this

I am so glad you did not disappear. Hold on to life, to those who love you. Like links in a chain, you are stronger when firmly connected. I am so glad you are safe. I am so glad I can see your pretty eyes, hear your voice and feel your hugs. You survived. I am glad.

Love, mom

My mom wrote this to me. I love her with my whole being. She’s the only one who has kept me going through all of this. I would be so lost with out her.

I feel so alone. No one understands how I feel..

And to top off my already amazing week. The guy I have been talking to, went on a date with,and skyped with every night for hours is now dating another girl and didn’t even have the decency to tell me.. I saw it on my news feed.

Nice

Let it hurt, every word, even more than I deserve.